№9 дон-Вонакак в чёрном собирается в Москву, мяу-Дамы в белом заводят кабриолеты

Dear Karla [my divorce lawyer]

There are 2 people on the cc-list of this email: my brother and my probation officer. I'm also openly publishing this letter at a comedy/humor Russian site, newostrie.ru https://newostrie.ru/posts/29356-9-don-vonakak-v-chyornom-sobiraetsja-v-moskvu-mjau-damy-v-belom-zavodjat-kabriolety.html, where I recently started to blog my life. Per the recommendation of my criminal lawyer, I'm advised not to use common social media platforms to minimize my chances of violating my restraining order.

After our recent discussion with you, I spoke with my brother, and he was very warm and receptive to my confession that I am a woman in a man's body.

I think it is time for me to openly come out of a closet and admit my gender identification. Since last year I officially put "X" for the sex when renewing my driver's license. I'm not planning to change my name and will remain Karen. Unlike brothers Wachowski, I'm not rich enough to pay for expensive surgeries and procedures for body alterations. Hence, I'll continue to stay a woman in a man's body. To be clear, I'm of strict moral values, and I go to church, and I object anal or oral homosexual sex with a man. My ideal partner is a man in a woman's body. I am hopeful that I can meet and fall in love with such a person and, once we're married, he'll bear our children.

You are very familiar with how severely I've been emotionally crushed by divorce and, specifically, by the restraining order. I have not seen my children and my dog for more than 9 months since May of 2021. And I was devastated when I've learned that my dog, whom I've raised as if he was my child/son, was neutered. I'm sincerely grateful for the compassion that you've shown me during ongoing divorce proceedings. Deep in my heart, I appreciate your empathy for a fellow woman and a mother since you are also a woman who has 2 children of your own.

Unfortunately, I've realized that my heart cannot heal outside of a family setting and caring for kids. My situation is so grave that I've recently, most probably, felt for a scam and "saved" a young teenage girl who needed expensive heart surgery. Please note that I do not have proof that this incident was a scam, and there is a possibility that it was not a scam and I indeed saved a child. I was about to hire a detective agency in Moldova but decided not to waste my money.

I've spoken with my brother about this incident. He lives in Moscow, Russia, with his wife and 3 sons (the 2 youngest are twins). My brother and his wife do not have parents, grandparents, or other direct relatives around to help them, while both work full-time. We've spoken extensively for several days over the phone. My brother is happy to accept me into his family.

Currently, my brother lives in a cramped 3-bedroom apartment in Moscow. He bought a 4-bedroom flat and started renovations to move in. But unfortunately, he ran out of money, and he encountered a delay in his move to a bigger and more suitable for his family 4-bedroom flat. Note that he is not planning to sell his old 3-bedroom apartment but wishes to pass it to [one of] his sons. We've come to an agreement that I will help my brother with money to accelerate renovation and his family's move into a new 4-bedroom flat. And, in return, he will let me live in his 3-bedroom apartment. He was also very kind to allow me to babysit his young children, and he offered to provide for my food. I'm sure that this arrangement will be utterly helpful for my mental health and will heal the trauma caused by divorce. I've spoken with my brother in detail about events that have led to my restraining order and 1-year criminal probation. He realizes all the nonsense of my situation. It is preposterous to claim that I'm a "frightful individual" – the last time I fought was when I was 5 years old and almost accidentally killed my best friend. In contrast, I'm a very gentle, kind, and caring woman in a man's body who is emotionally fragile, especially in pro-life areas and all aspects related to children and their upbringing.

With this said, I'd like you to request a judge to bifurcate assets division from actual divorce and children's custody decisions. The imminent necessity is that I need to send some money to my brother in Russia so that he can finish his new 4-bedroom flat renovation and prepare his old 3-bedroom flat for my move to Moscow. I suppose my physical presence in the US is necessary to finalize the division of the assets. After this step is complete, I can quickly move to Moscow and finish the rest of the divorce proceedings remotely. Please, note that my restraining order encompasses my mother-in-law living in Moscow; however, I can reassure my probation officer that I won't seek any contact with her, and I am hopeful that my probation officer will allow me to move to Russia. Per my 1-year criminal probation requirements, I also need to pass the Prevention of Abuse and Violence through Education (PAVE) 40-week long program and psychiatric mental evaluation. Please, note that I've already signed to the PAVE program, and it is a remote program that I can attend and pass from Moscow. I'll leave it up to my probation officer to decide where I should pass a psychiatric evaluation, either in the US or Russia. However, once I'm about to be removed from the family health insurance, I'd strongly prefer NOT to pay for expensive health care in the US, but seek free medical evaluations and treatments in Moscow provided for free for all Russian citizens by a Russian government. Since my future residence will most probably be in Moscow, Russia, I'd strongly prefer to have all evaluations and treatments set up in Moscow. Correspondingly, I see all psychiatric evaluations in the US as a waste of time and money for me since they are not transferable to Russia. I'd rather instead pass a psychiatric evaluation in Moscow, Russia, and, if deemed mentally ill, continue a relationship with a psychiatrist who carried such an evaluation in Russia. I'm confident that I'll be able to provide a notary public certified translation from Russia of corresponding psychiatric evaluation, diagnosis if any, necessary medication if any, treatments if any.

Finally, it should be fair if the judge awards me 50% of children's custody. Technically, my wife and I were a lesbian couple, albeit a 2nd woman was in a man's body. Correspondingly, I was an unlucky 2nd mother who could not bear children in our marriage. If I've had a woman's body, i.e., if I've had a womb instead of a penis, I'm certain that in our lesbian marriage, I'd also have conceived and given birth to some of our [family] children. Anyway, I contributed to our family as if a woman and provided utterly gentle care for our kids as if a woman would do. And I suppose I should not be deprived of my woman's and mother's rights. To conclude, from my point of view, divorce of 2 women entails 50% split of ALL [family] children's custody irrespective of who gave birth to which child. There might already be precedents in divorce law when a lesbian couple had, for example, 4 children, where 1 was born by one mother and 3 by another mother. In this case, I suppose that the children's custody arrangement was for a 50% split for each family child. Unfortunately, I understand that such complex gender arrangements are uncommon, and society, especially the legal system, is probably not ready yet to deal appropriately with children's custody in such complicated situations.

If the judge awards me a men's standard every other 2 weekends for children to stay over at my house, then my heart will be crushed. Instead, I'd rather prefer that you request from the judge maybe every other day remote parenting time of my kids for me from Moscow. In a miraculous turn of events, if I were awarded 50% custody of my kids, I might reconsider my move to Russia and might work and stay in the US. On a passing note, when discussing children's custody and calculating alimonies, I'd like the judge to consider the fact that I can provide housing for my kids in my brother's 2nd 3-bedroom flat in Moscow. Moreover, I can cover summer vacations for my kids basically for free at my brother's summer house in a village in the countryside near Moscow. Moreover, since my [family] children are Russian citizens, they are entitled to a free, extremely high-quality, and reputable education in universities in Moscow. Correspondingly, I do not see why I should be paying alimonies to cover unnecessary equivalent high educational expenses in the US. Finally, once in Moscow, I'm sure I'd be able to find cheaper alternatives for extracurricular activities for my kids, for example, for remote saxophone classes my daughter is probably taking now.

Thank you, Karen